so tense. I was worn out by the heavy work and preparation for going to UK. the daytime is busy working....th nighttime is for the IMESS so so so overwhelming by those deadlines, documents, annoying things. Just few months ago, I felt nothing to do after application was done. I always thought, well.....I should do something, I should live a meaningful life. So I move back, spend more time with my parents. Then I found my job, which is a relaxing summer job in National Park. live a slow life and look forward to coming to UK.... well.......that's all in my dream. after I came back, I spent all time doing my endless works. no rest and less sleep the job is not relaxing at all. Taroko National Park is beautiful though, I just visited 2 trails so far. Most time I have to sit, in the library, using my laptop. 39 days to go to UK, I become so unwell abt the future. Visa and course forms are quite annoying. I do hope have a meaningful life and become much busier, but it's too much to me. Now I hope my life could be balanced, having more time to do what I want. That's all I need. Would God give me a break?